Long Nights

I have currently been awake for 36 hours now, roughly. I don't usually pull all-nighters, but due to the blizzard, classes were canceled on Wednesday and so I ended up doing no homework and instead built a snow sculpture. Of course when I looked out my window this morning someone had destroyed it. After having my legs go numb and my hands become frozen, I was pretty pissed, but I got over it. Anyway, the point is that I actually pulled an all-nighter. It's my first one of the school year. I managed to always be able to sleep last term but not this time. I know I have time management issues and by procrastinating, I only make my situation worse for myself. Still, there are just so many distractions in life that I can't seem to get rid of. These distractions are necessarily bad ones though. It's not like I spend my nights underage drinking in an alcohol-free dorm, unlike some other people I could mention. Sure it's fun the first time, but why is it necessary to do it every weekend?

What do people see in it? Is having a hangover some amazing experience that I just have to go through? I don't think so. I'm perfectly fine not drinking and wasting my time doing dumbass things.

I envy people who have the drive to get things done. You know, those people who come straight back from class and can get straight to homework and can continuously work on it until dinner or bedtime. The moment I get back to the room, I hope on the computer to release the frustration and stress from classes that day and then I slowly get to homework sometime during the night. It's not exactly a great way to spend my time, but somehow I always manage to get things done. I admit that sometimes the work I produce seems half-assed and at first I didn't mind, but now I do. I don't want to be that girl who half-asses works when she could do so much better because she has a procrastination problem. I just need proper drive. I need incentive. What better incentive is there than the fear of letting people down? The frustration of knowing that other people are doing better than me when I know I can do better. It makes me want to scream and claw at them, even though I know its fault.

Funny thing is, I'm saying this and yet I know it's not as if I'll wake up tomorrow morning and stop procrastinating. It's not like I'll fix my horrible habits by tomorrow. Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever be able to fix them. I'm just not a patient enough person to wait and therefore I tend to give up even before I properly begin.

BBC Book List

1) Bold those you have read.
2) Star the ones you loved.*
3) Italicize partially read/currently reading.
4) The rest I obviously plan on reading.

1. Pride and Prejudice – Jane Austen *
2 The Lord of the Rings – JRR Tolkien
3 Jane Eyre – Charlotte Bronte *
4 Harry Potter series – JK Rowling *
5 To Kill a Mockingbird – Harper Lee
6 The Bible
7 Wuthering Heights – Emily Bronte *
8 Nineteen Eighty Four – George Orwell
9 His Dark Materials – Philip Pullman *
10 Great Expectations – Charles Dickens
11 Little Women - Louisa May Alcott *
12 Tess of the D'Urbervilles - Thomas Hardy *
13 Catch 22 – Joseph Heller
14 Complete Works of Shakespeare
15 Rebecca – Daphne Du Maurier
16 The Hobbit – JRR Tolkien *
17 Birdsong – Sebastian Faulks
18 Catcher in the Rye – JD Salinger
19 The Time Traveler's Wife - Audrey Niffenegger
20 Middlemarch – George Eliot
21 Gone With The Wind – Margaret Mitchell
22 The Great Gatsby – F Scott Fitzgerald *
23 Bleak House – Charles Dickens
24 War and Peace - Leo Tolstoy
25 The Hitch Hiker’s Guide to the Galaxy – Douglas Adams
26 Brideshead Revisited – Evelyn Waugh
27 Crime and Punishment – Fyodor Dostoyevsky
28 Grapes of Wrath – John Steinbeck
29 Alice in Wonderland – Lewis Carroll *
30 The Wind in the Willows – Kenneth Grahame
31 Anna Karenina – Leo Tolstoy
32 David Copperfield – Charles Dickens
33 Chronicles of Narnia – CS Lewis *
34 Emma – Jane Austen
35 Persuasion – Jane Austen
36 The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe – CS Lewis *
37 The Kite Runner – Khaled Hosseini
38 Captain Corelli’s Mandolin – Louis De Berniere
39 Memoirs of a Geisha – Arthur Golden
40 Winnie the Pooh – AA Milne
41 Animal Farm – George Orwell
42 The Da Vinci Code – Dan Brown
43 One Hundred Years of Solitude – Gabriel Garcia Marquez
44 A Prayer for Owen Meaney – John Irving
45 The Woman in White – Wilkie Collins
47 Far From the Madding Crowd - Thomas Hardy
48 The Handmaid’s Tale – Margaret Atwood
49 Lord of the Flies – William Golding *
50 Atonement – Ian McEwan
51 Life of Pi – Yann Martel
52 Dune – Frank Herbert
53 Cold Comfort Farm – Stella Gibbons
54 Sense and Sensibility – Jane Austen
55 A Suitable Boy – Vikram Seth
56 The Shadow of the Wind – Carlos Ruiz Zafon
57 A Tale Of Two Cities – Charles Dickens
58 Brave New World – Aldous Huxley
59 The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-time – Mark Haddon
60 Love In The Time of Cholera - Gabriel Garcia Marquez
61 Of Mice and Men – John Steinbeck
62 Lolita – Vladimir Nabokov
63 The Secret History – Donna Tartt
64 The Lovely Bones – Alice Sebold
65 Count of Monte Cristo – Alexandre Dumas
66 On The Road – Jack Kerouac
67 Jude the Obscure - Thomas Hardy
68 Bridget Jones’s Diary – Helen Fielding
69 Midnight's Children - Salman Rushdie
70 Moby Dick – Herman Melville
71 Oliver Twist – Charles Dickens
72 Dracula – Bram Stoker
73 The Secret Garden – Frances Hodgson Burnett
74 Notes From A Small Island – Bill Bryson
75 Ulysses - James Joyce
76 The Bell Jar - Sylvia Plath
77 Swallows and Amazons – Arthur Ransome
78 Germinal – Emile Zola
79 Vanity Fair - William Makepeace Thackeray
80 Possession – AS Byatt
81 A Christmas Carol – Charles Dickens
82 Cloud Atlas – David Mitchell
83 The Color Purple – Alice Walker
84 The Remains of the Day – Kazuo Ishiguro
85 Madame Bovary – Gustave Flaubert
86 A Fine Balance – Rohinton Mistry
87 Charlotte’s Web – EB White
88 The Five People You Meet In Heaven – Mitch Albom
89 Adventures of Sherlock Holmes – Sir Arthur Conan Doyle
90 The Faraway Tree Collection – Enid Blyton
91 Heart of Darkness – Joseph Conrad
92 The Little Prince – Antoine De Saint-Exupery
93 The Wasp Factory – Iain Banks
94 Watership Down – Richard Adams
95 A Confederacy of Dunces – John Kennedy Toole
96 A Town Like Alice – Nevil Shute
97 The Three Musketeers – Alexandre Dumas
98 Hamlet – William Shakespeare
99 Charlie and the Chocolate Factory – Roald Dahl
100 Les Miserables - Victor Hugo

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