Secrets.

My family apparently has a lot of secrets. I mean, I guess I always knew that, even when I was a kid. It's something you can just tell, or feel. The first big secret that I found out was about my Dad's younger sister. She was two years younger than my Dad and her name was AeKyung. Apparently, my Grandmother gave my aunt to my Grandfather and his wife to take care of. At the time, I thought his wife meant his second wife, as in, my Grandmother came first (but that's another secret I'll get to in a second). Anyway. This wife, being the bitch that she was, abandoned my aunt at some train station and no one ever saw her again. I hope to find her one day. I know it's a pretty far fetched idea, but it'd be really nice if I could.

Second secret would be the reason why my parents divorced and my mother ran away for a few years. When I was younger, I had been told that it was because my mother wanted to get away from my grandmother, but then I learned it was just because of my dad. Apparently when they were in Korea, my dad lent some money to my mom's older sister when they were in need, but when my dad was in need, they didn't give any money back. So it just kind of escalated and my mom couldn't take sides, so their marriage just sort of fell a part and when my mom asked for a divorce, my dad agreed but said that she wouldn't be able to see my brother or myself until we were eighteen. Of course, that didn't really happen, since she contacted us before and a year or so after my dad apologized and went to find our mother (because he didn't know we were already communicating with her. I guess that's another family secret I came up with).

Right. And now the third secret I found out about is apparently that both of my grandmothers are the second woman in the lives of my grandfathers. They both had wives previously before meeting my grandmothers and having an 'affair' with them. I say 'affair' because back then, there really wasn't solid things like marriages, so it's all very loose. In any case, on my mother's side of the family, my grandfather simultaneously held relationships with his first wife and my grandmother. In fact, they all lived in the same house at one point and apparently, they all still meet from time to time. Not my grandfather of course, he's dead, but apparently all his children still get along. So apparently I have 1 aunt and 3 uncles (and their spouses) that I never knew about. Of course, the same can't be said about my dad's side. Like I said before, my grandfather's wife abandoned by aunt, so it can clearly by seen that she never got over the jealousy of her husband's affair. In my grandmother's defense, she didn't know he was married at the time. I'm not sure how many older siblings my dad has, or what exactly went down within his family, but I think I'll ask him one day.

I'm not one of those people who's floored by the secrets or hurt that I was never told about them. I'm actually rather amused and kind of glad. When I was younger, I had always hoped for a bigger family. I always wanted more aunts and uncles, more cousins, etc. And now I find that I actually do. Granted, I doubt I'll ever get to meet them, but it's nice to know that they're there. Plus, this is all rather good material for a book or whatnot, right?